Interesting Developments

I just don't care.

2011-09-23T19:41:00.001-04:00

I know I should because my brain is telling that I should. I should want to change but I don't want to and have no desire to right now. Why try so hard when you know you'll never be the best? When you know that it's not even passable in some people's eyes. It's a twisted way of thinking but who cares? It's not like I'm hurting anybody.

You look outside and you see all those happy people and you realize that no one is happy and that everyone is wearing a mask of some form in order to look good to the world.

I'm too groggy to write anything coherent.

WOW

2011-09-22T04:27:00.004-04:00

It's strange looking at back my posts from more than a year ago. I don't even feel like I'm looking at the same person and I don't even recognize those people whose makeup I did. Those people who used to be so close to me feel like complete strangers. It's like I never knew them at all.

There's has been too much change in too short amount of time. I've gone the wrong way. I'm the outcast now and I don't know how to deal with it. As cheesy as this is going to sound, you really never know what life is going to throw at you. I wish someone had told me that when I was 17.

And now it's over...

2010-01-04T15:04:00.004-05:00

Well, that was interesting. Didn't sleep until 5 am. Ate candy and junk food all night. Watched Amityville Horror (2005 remake). That was some scary shit right there. Watched Slumdog Millionaire ( a little underwhelmed to be honest) and talked until the wee hours of the morning. Although my family misbehaved a little it was still an awesome sleepover.

I'm exhausted and I have upset stomach but it was totally worth it.

Before and After Makeup Pictures + Blooper Videos

2010-01-03T21:40:00.008-05:00

Before Pictures:

After Pictures:

Bloopers:

Here's a preview of what happened only an hour ago. You'll get the edited videos in a week from now.

Sleepover Videos

2010-01-03T14:27:00.004-05:00

Tonight will be the night where I film the extravagant sleepover makeup videos!

The lucky girls getting make overs are:

Jenny: Smokey Eye

Emily: Hollywood Starlet

Lieska: Natural, Everyday Look

They will be simple, easy to do makeup instructions with gorgeous results. I will post the majority of the videos and pictures tomorrow.

Grrrrr!

2010-01-03T12:49:00.003-05:00

I know I shouldn't be angry but I am. I spent the night at this woman's house and I'm only getting $15 out the $80 the lady had giving her. My brother, who has done absolutely nothing but stay at home and cry, is getting $5. He's done NOTHING! All he does is act cute and cry a little. I know he's the favorite but she doesn't have to make it so obvious.

Favorite Things of the Decade

2010-01-02T20:33:00.006-05:00

Since every magazine publication and critic site is doing a "Best of the Decade" list, I decided to do one of my own. Here are a few of my favorite things of this decade. Please keep in mind that I barely remember the first three years of the decade so most of these items are from 2004 onwards.

Favorite Artist : Lady GaGa
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Favorite Song: Hollywood

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Favorite Band: Young Love

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Favorite Movie: Eternal Sunshine Of the Spotless Mind
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Favorite TV Show: The O.C

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This is all I cared about for 2 years of my life.

Here I am pimples and all...

2010-01-02T20:24:00.004-05:00

In this little old woman's house, typing on her noisy keyboard while she sleeps silently upstairs. It's not so bad even though there's no wireless internet. She's the sweetest old lady I have ever met.

My acne is getting seriously out of control. It hasn't been this bad in months. I'm trying everything short of ordering something from TV. Anyone have any suggestions?

Going out, Finally!

2010-01-02T12:07:00.003-05:00

Getting my camera, hair cream(s) and a few groceries. Grandmother will be home alone, which is worrisome for my mother considering her condition. We won't be out long though. We'll probably be back in 45 mins. max. As soon as my hair is done, I will be able to fully concentrate on my triumphant return to school. The sleepover is tomorrow, but today I have to help at my mother's extra job. Not fun, not fun. Work, then play.

Monster Barbies

2010-01-02T10:23:00.009-05:00

Aren't these the cutest things you ever did see? I want the kermit one so badly.

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Tea Time

2010-01-02T10:08:00.005-05:00

This makes me want to never leave the house, snuggle deep beneath my blankets and sleep forever.

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Soft as a cloud

2010-01-01T21:01:00.001-05:00

Once, again apologies for the crappy quality. I don't understand what happened to Bugs Bunnies' eyes. They looks so fucking creepy.

What did GaGa do on New's Year's Eve?

2010-01-01T19:53:00.001-05:00

She spent it performing at the Fontainebleau Hotel in Miami Beach, Florida.

Wish I had been there. If only I had $25,000 dollars laying around.

Andy Warhol Me

2010-01-01T19:47:00.001-05:00

Stay Tuned - Sleepover Makeup Videos

2010-01-01T19:40:00.000-05:00

I'm organizing makeup videos that will take place during the sleepover. It'll be very Tricia Sawyer type videos. A lot of fun and a lot of laughing.

Re-decorated my Room - A Bunch of Photos

2010-01-01T18:16:00.000-05:00

Because I'm bored, here's a series of pictures taken with my crappy, crappy webcam. Stay tuned for my makeup tutorials with my friends.

Three Faced Woman

2010-01-01T17:30:00.000-05:00

There's a lot of people in me. I feel like I can be multiple people all at the same time. I don't think anyone could ever really get to know who I am since I don't think I am ever the same person with anyone for too long. At times I think it's a gift, other times I think it's the reason why my life is always so disoriented. Weird. Very weird.

The IT Girl Curse

2010-01-01T14:29:00.000-05:00

Inspiration

2010-01-01T14:17:00.001-05:00

I love Heather Graham. I don't care about all the fan horror stories about her. She's awesome.

Marie-Antoinette costume presentation from the 79th annual Academy Awards. I wish I could dress like this everyday, all the time.

Anyone read that shocking blind item about Gretchen? It's sad, non? She looked beautiful here.

I love this look so much. Everything about this is perfect. The hair, the dress, the makeup, everything. This outfit is what dreams are made of.

No explanation needed.

Well, this is a new year and I have to review the ideas and the strength that elevated me so much in September. I have to find my way once again. I have discard friendships and frenemies that are not worth my time or energy. It's time to re-evaluate.

Journey + a Sleepover

2010-01-01T14:11:00.000-05:00

I finally got my charger back. I never knew I was so dependent on my laptop until yesterday. I was literally clawing the walls with my nails. Pretty sad if you ask me.

Happy New YEAR!!!!

Hopefully you had more interesting plans than I did.

Oh yeah and I forgot...

2009-12-29T22:54:00.000-05:00

Star Wars is not as great as people say! Fans will foam out the mouth defending this over hyped recent movies but it doesn't hold a candle to the new Star Trek. Come on! Zach Quinto was super hot as Spock.

Third Wheel

2009-12-29T22:49:00.000-05:00

I sorta feel like a tumor right now. Like I don't really belong. I don't like it. I don't wanna be here anymore.

Hungry For Attention

2009-12-28T22:19:00.001-05:00

This Christmas break has been a total waste of time. I haven't even finished reading my Garbo book. I haven't looked effectively for a job in ages and money is really starting to become an issue. The weather is also bumming me out.

It's cold, wet and slippery. It feels like the planet has been encrusted by a crusty, crunchy, brown cover. I want summer. I need summer.

Tomorrow is the only silver lining.

Perez Hilton? TMZ? No and No.

2009-12-28T17:33:00.000-05:00

LaineyGossip is where all the genuinely funny commentary and real Hollywood stories are. Perez Hilton has never had a single important exclusive and steals the majority of this shit from ONTD (one of the funniest gossip commentary out there). TMZ, has had a few exclusives but nothing about the lives of the celebrities. It's all deaths and car crashes. Lainey is the only gossip site I know that actually has connections and reliable, behind-the-scenes sources.

So if you want real gossip, Lainey is the place go.

My New Inspiration

2009-12-28T16:58:00.000-05:00

The New Year is on it's way. You know what that means?? Shedding my old ideas and inspirations to adopt new ones.

Inspiration for 2010:

There's a lot of Madonna from the Blonde Ambition/Girlie Era

Such a beautiful couple, non?

This bunny is so insanely fierce.

The indescribable GaGa.

As you can see I've become obsessed with black and white pictures. They are so much more alluring than colour (GaGa's picture is an obvious exception). I'm modeling this year on Madonna, Joan Crawford, Garbo and GaGa. I am not necessarily trying to turn myself into these people but I will draw a lot of inspiration, courage and strength from them.

2010 will be great, I know it.

Getting rid of it

2009-12-28T16:53:00.001-05:00

I'm getting rid of this hairstyle. I do not like it. I don't what made me think it would look good on me. I don't understand how I could have ruined a perfectly good hairstyle? Tomorrow will be spent trying to untangle the mess that is my mane at Lekesha's house.

(I have the greatest friends, thank you!)

Here are a few examples of horrific bang disasters. If you ever decide to get this hairstyle, ask for bang extensions to see how it suits your face before you do decide to cut your locks.

My loves, GaGa & Fergie

2009-12-11T23:05:00.000-05:00

I never thought she was anything speacial until I heard "Be Italian". Kate Hudson is a dwarf mouse compared to her, although I still love "Cinema Italiano". I adore 8 1/2 and I fear disappointment in Nine. Although "Be Italian" and "Cinema Italiano" are beautiful everything else related to the film sucks. Even DDL is looking a little lackluster. Oh, well.

My obsession with Lady GaGa is starting to become unhealthy. I love this woman so very very much. After I heard Poker Face I was hooked for life. She's my muse, my role model, my queen of pop and my inspiration.

He ate my heart, he a-a-ate my heart.

HAIR.

2009-12-11T22:51:00.000-05:00

This is it. Yeah. It's a weave. Deal with it. I don't think it looks as bad as I thought. I am pleased.

shit...

2009-12-09T00:37:00.000-05:00

I think the fringe was a bad idea.

I need a fringe, NOW!

2009-12-08T09:14:00.000-05:00

I'm desperate for one. They have so much structure without being too complicated or feel as if I am trying too hard. This is perfect for me right now. If I don't get one I might just go mad. How could you not want one?

Be Italian

2009-12-02T19:55:00.000-05:00

I want to see Nine so badly. I loved Chicago. I love Rob Marshall. I totally fell in love with Kate Hudson. What a voice! I dream to be exactly like her. Absolute confidence. A total maneater.

Youtube "Cinema Italiano Kate Hudson". You will be blown away. This girl is AMAZING.

The Uglification of the Risen Queen

2009-12-01T18:35:00.000-05:00

This always happens. I have this droop in confidence/prettiness/fashion sense that happens every year. Up in til now it happened in early October. This year I've lasted all the way into December. But I can't keep up the charade anymore. My expectations increase every day. It's come to a point when what I have doesn't meet with my expectations. I hate this. A LOT. I change just as frequently as my moods now a days. I'm getting worried. I hope I haven't reached my peak for this year.

Look Book for Christmas '09.

i need hair like this. I'm getting a fringe if it kills me.Isn't this the most beautiful hat that you ever did see? I need to find one like the one the beautiful Bonnie Parker is wearing. One in black, one in red.

Blond Hair.

2009-05-27T23:42:00.000-04:00

Guess who was featured on LaineyGossip.com today? I was, that's right. It was for hate mail. It's rather unsophisticated but true, very true. Either way, I got featured. And I'm glad. It's my five minutes of fame. HA!

I love you so much. I want to grab you and hold you and shake you. With your tuffle of blond hair. Beautiful.